It was yesterday at around noon. I was just watching TV lookin’ for programs worth watching… So there i changed channels and got bored so with nothing else to do i decided to play Final Fantasy XII on my ps2.
I play this game everyday, I always play games. Especially RPGs…
I remember long time ago, when i was still in college, i accidentally met this beautiful girl who loved video games as much as i do, she was strong-willed, never having to need anybody to look after her, she was really tough to deal with at times but in the end she’ll give a beautiful look back at you.
I became friends with her, along with our friends we were all happy with what we had in common, we laughed and it was fun. Eventually i fell for her, she was the same. We had our own share of breakups, thinking that it would be the last time but in a manner of weeks or months we’ll just surprise ourselves back together and talking once again.
Later on I was already working, she was finishing college… My job took over my life, I eventually forgot who I really was, those things that i liked, those friends that i had, they slowly drifted away. I knew she was so hurt and i also knew that she thought that i was a different person.
I even had an affair with someone else though that girl knew i was still in love with the same girl i once loved. I tried to get back but it was different, somehow life as an adult is not as easy as i thought it would be. So i promised my self, i’m gonna fix my life, earn myself enough respect, get me some good money and once i’m done with all of this, I’m going to take her back.
It was February 13, i had an argument with my boss coz i need 14th as my free day so i can take her to a date, but it didn’t happen. 2 days after, it was 15th, that i asked her what happened, she told me she went with this guy, and she seemed very happy. For me it was the opposite.
One afternoon, while i was checking my friendster, i came across her new profile, it was a new one. And she was already in a relationship. At first i thought it was a joke, but as days went by i came to realize it wasn’t. It was the very first time i ever saw here with someone else and i was out cold and literally broken. I tried to act tough and all but in the end she won.
My plan of making my life stable so i can prove her family that i am deserving was finally over. Everyday i checked on her to find out what’s going on and that’s the time i knew that she was very happy now. We tried to close this chapter in our life a lot of times, but i guess this time’s serious. It really is over and it’s sinking in. I don’t want to ruin other people’s happiness. I guess that regrets really come in when you’re already into it.
I have to let go now. This part of my life will always be remembered. Today is March 19, 2009. After this, I’ll forget all the sad things and move one as she did the same.